Sex is an important part of life, but sometimes life takes another turn because of it. Australia’s famous model Amarantha Robinson has shared a special experience related to her sex life with ‘The Guardian’. Amarantha has told how she kept a distance from sex for three years and what happened to her during this time.
Amarantha told, ‘In 2016 when I was 30 years old, my dating life was going very badly. There was a kind of pattern set in my life in which I used to meet a man and I started liking him, there was physical intimacy between us and our relationship broke up very quickly. It seemed to me that men only come to me for sex and leave me when they are satisfied. I thought that why not look at sex by removing it from life and still if someone stays with me then it will really be for me only. I stopped having physical relationships and in the meantime I started going to church. There my belief was strengthened that sex is a bad thing and it only hurts.
Amarantha said, ‘I had a very good two years without sex. Living without any emotional pain in dating life was like an achievement for me. I became happy and started following the principles of the church completely. Emotionally tho I was stable but it started affecting some of my things too. In anything, I was trying less from my side now. It seemed as if I was putting energy separately to do some work. From the third year onwards, I started feeling bad about my dating life.
‘I started feeling as if there was no adventure left in my life. It wasn’t just about sex, I was missing small things like flirting or feeling special for a man. It seemed that I had forgotten to live and I was losing something inside. A sadness was going home in my mind. I was getting away from my body and sensuality. My desire to go to church was starting to fade now. Eventually I decided to give myself another chance. I met a guy from the island online and made plans to go on a trip there.
Amarantha said in the end, ‘I have also learned that self-made stories or ideas often hurt you. That’s why I have decided that from now on I will not keep myself away from anything. I have rewritten my story. However, after staying away from sex for a few years, I have become clear in many things. It was like a break for me that gave me a new discovery of who I am, what I want from life and what is really more important to me.
